Naturally
It doesn't matter
I wonder though if I'll ever have a chance
with anyone
I wanted him!
Him!
And I fucking thought he wanted me!

But no....Dreams are only dreams
And cease to actually come true
Only ones of financial aid can really
really come true

The dark is so attractive
When your emotion matches it's velvety color
But who knew that I'd keep coming back to it
ingoring the blue sky out there.

what's wrong, what's wrong?
Nothing! Go away!
Stop asking me questions  
I don't know the answers to
your questions anymore

go away.
please don't ask.
I'm upset.
it happens at times like this

And this is the second time.
Sleepless nights.
I knew it wasn't a good sign.
Breathless words
I thought'd it be right this time

But no, now I've lost
Him and myself
Better back off this time
There's no telling..or else

But! But!
It's not fair!
It's not fair!
I shouldn't have said anything.
I should've listened to myself.
But it felt right!!!
It felt so right!

Damnit!
Damnit!
Damnit!
I lost again.
I'm never going to be...
I'll always be alone.
I'll never know what it is to be truly in love.
Because nobody will have ever given me a chance.

To live?
To love?
To die
to dream.
To obsess
to live
to lie
dto ie.
End of story.
That's my life.